Hello, I am Anna Marie with Dragonfly Rose and I welcome you to The Daily Journal. I am finally getting to recording this at 3 pm! This morning I was going really well emotionally but as the morning went and my day was chiseled away by appointments and errands, I found my patience growing thin and my irritability rising. This podcast is very important to me and when I run behind on when I want to get it finished my anxiety starts to get rocked. On one hand, I am embarrassed that I get so bent out of shape but on the other, I am happy to see where I need improvement. When I sat down to journal this morning I had no real issues. Yesterday was a good day with very few issues and it was a breath of fresh air. It was a needed respite from the crazy of lately.
As I connected further into things I got this. I need to rest and be more selfish with my time and energy. I get so zapped so quickly that I must cut out something so I am not always trying to juggle so much as well as keep my mental health. I am within the ending of a phase that has riddled my life with a lot of guilt. I must ask for what I need and want and spend time in prayer, meditation, and intention setting.
Having my little anxiety attack this afternoon has shown me that I need to cut back on what I am giving right now or I am going to be irritable and grumpy constantly. This is definitely not how I want to live. I will be looking at things realistically from now on in regard to what I can handle. Because I keep myself so busy I can’t see clearly what I really want from life or where I want to go. I am tired of not giving enough to myself.
We live in a society where we are taught that being selfish is a bad thing, and even within my own life, I can see how I have allowed this belief to run in the background causing me to over-commit my energy. I need a balance. what will work for me so I can stay in a better mental space and so I can clearly see what I want and be brave enough to ask for it or make it happen?
I am proud of myself for doing the things I need to do and for being ok to decline events if my energy is too low.
One other lesson that I came across in my journal was that it is ok when things are ok! Living in spaces where things are usually very tumultuous it can be hard to live in a space where things are good. We have all heard the saying it's okay to not be ok, well it is also ok to be ok!
When I connect to Divinity I asked what the listeners and readers needed to hear. I got two messages.
X of Cups
II of Pentacles
You are at the precipice of your dreams coming true, of all the blessings you’ve asked for. You’re juggling many things to keep balance and they want you to know that it is ok to let go and enter into this new journey. You are ready! Trust yourself! Trust that you won’t ‘drop’ anything by embracing your blessings.
VII of Pentacles
V of Swords (R)
Underlying energy: VII of Cups
You have all these things before you to choose from. Things you have fought for. Fought to the point where it went too far and it was cold-blooded with lives being affected. Because of this, you are not able to see what is before you, and your power has been blocked or taken, from you. There is this feeling that it will never be enough.
The Temperance card suggests that:
You need to bring balance and moderation between the 2 opposing energies.
Judgment (R). You are refusing to see things for what they are. Open your eyes and move forward.
I don’t know if both these readings are for you or if just one resonates but I hope that this reading has helped you.
I hope that you are having a great day and I look forward to sharing a piece of me with you again tomorrow. Take Care.