Hello, I am Anna Marie with Dragonfly Rose and I welcome you to The Daily Journal. Today had a focus on self-love and my path in life.
As I sat down to journal today I felt as though I was standing at the edge of a great precipice. Peering over and out there was a seemingly vast and empty nothingness. Behind me lay many different paths I could take but I didn’t want to turn around. I wanted to jump. The pathless path has always called to me. The direction no one has ever gone. When I travel I like getting lost in places, the excitement of not knowing where I am, and more importantly, no one knowing where I am feels freeing.
There is a delay in my jumping into this new beginning because I am questioning my feeling of fulfillment and the source of happiness for me on this earth. I am questioning my place here and refusing to listen to my heart and emotions. My heart and my emotions are what will lead me to this re-birth.
On Monday at 9:49 am EST there will be the Lion’s Gate Portal opening in the New Moon of Leo which represents self-expression, creation, and rules over the heart. It will be a time to call in great abundance into our lives. But if you are blocked… well, it will be a wasted intention. Along with writing petitions and intentions, I am being called to first journey. A Shamanic type of journey where I take my drum and I go into a meditative trance and travel to that precipice in my mind and jump. I have soul journeyed many times in the past but it has been some years. It is time. I look forward to sharing this experience with you all.
As I was writing about the journey I was called to yesterday evening. I was getting ready to go to my partner’s parents where we would swim and have dinner. The new suit I got did not fit and as I looked at my body in the mirror I didn’t even recognize that woman. I have almost made it back up to 200lbs, being 5’2” which is a lot of weight for my frame. I couldn’t believe how I had let my body become this. I know I need to love myself as I am, but I also need to set up a routine so I can get my body moving more. When I was a massage therapist I was moving all the time. When I retired from massage I began sitting more, especially since my new line of work is sitting in front of a computer most of the time. When I think of exercise I am not in a space of excitement but when I focused on movement the ideas started flowing. Punching bag, dancing, walking, yoga, swimming, and stretching were a few that popped into my head. I can work with these! Time-wise it will be hard to fit it all in within one stretch so I will take breaks every hour to move for a bit.
I also realized, from the events that were bugging me from yesterday's entry, that I cannot let what others think, or try to manipulate, affect me and my decisions. I can listen if they are willing to open and communicate honestly and openly but if there is no communication then I need to continue as I had originally planned. As a strong empathy this will be a difficult one since I can sense the unsaid but just as I am learning to communicate others must be given the same space to do so, and to be able to communicate what is bothering them on their own time, instead of me pushing because I can feel it.
As I connected with Spirit this morning I asked for what the listeners/readers needed to hear today. As always the cards will be on my website dragonflyrose.com in the forum under the discussion The Daily Journal.
VIII of Pentacles (R)
King of Pentacles
IX of Wands (R)
King of Wands
Underlying energy/feeling: III of Swords
Feelings of heartache and suffering - disappointment and heartbreak. Be patient with yourself and your healing. These new things coming into your life cannot be rushed. And there are no shortcuts here if you want true stability. You must be patient, take your time, and make practical and sensible decisions while also being able to do whatever it takes with dedicated and gentle loving devotion. It may leave you feeling like it is more work than it is worth. Spirit is telling you that only you can decide if it is or isn’t. If you decide it is it will take time, devotion, love, patience, and effort. But your efforts will be awarded.
I hope that my words today brought you a greater understanding of yourself, or me, and enlightenment into your own mental worlds. I wish you love and blessings and I hope you have a lovely day today. Until tomorrow! Take care.