Hello, I am Anna Marie with Dragonfly Rose, and I welcome you to The Daily Journal. Life is so full of lessons and knowledge but we have to slow down and listen. I do this with my journal. When I journal in an interactive way I can peel back the layers to get to the roots of my issues and behaviors. Not to pull them, because, let's face it, they will grow back, but to nurture them in the ways they need. Not to be confused to just ‘giving in’ to your dark side but to acknowledge and shower with love and understanding. To say thank you for trying to protect me and for bringing me knowledge about whatever is going on.
Today the main message I got while journaling is that we must walk away from what isn’t’ serving us. Yesterday I left a networking organization that has been rubbing me the wrong way since I joined. The leaders of this organization were the main reason for leaving, with the catalyst being the down trickle of fear to gain members creating the groups to resort to ways of manipulation to get people to join. As I could rant about this further I am going to stop because this is not the intention of this. The message was walking away. That is what I did, I walked away from something that was directly violating my values, ethics, and integrity. The only energy I will allow in my mental space and physical world are ones that nurture my values, ethics, and integrity.
Introspection and self-reflection are so important. We all have bad days, we all have moments where we try to manipulate others to get what we want, and the list can go on and on. We are human and that means we have the cognitive reasoning to be able to go into introspection; to get to the core of our actions and why we do what we do, and then to go further and create a plan for healing that behavior. It is also a time for being honest with ourselves. I know I am not always a good human. I get frustrated, angry, and sometimes (depending on what they have done, especially if it is to my children) I wish ill on some people. It is in our nature to war, to be in states of fight or flight. What we do after we make a mistake is what matters.
I am feeling great now that I am starting to live more authentically and facing the uncomfortable situations that throw my life off balance. It is not easy, and sometimes very scary emotionally, but it is worth it. But it doesn’t happen overnight and it takes patience with yourself and your world.
As I journaled I got out some frustrations with some behaviors from others that made me feel, not angry, but sad, or like I was not welcome, or that maybe they were trying to ‘get rid of me’ (so to speak). This certain event had me excited for some much-needed adventure but now has me not wanting to go. The adventure is what stuck with me. I crave adventures, I am restless and I want to see new places and meet new people. I realize that I was excited to explore and that it may be best for me to just bough out and plan my own adventure. This is part of walking away as well. Giving space for others and for myself. I haven’t done anything on my own in a while! Perhaps it is time to plan it. But I will also be open with how this has all made me feel. I don’t think it was intended to make me feel the way it did, or maybe it was, but either way, there is something that needs to be released so it doesn’t fester. When we don’t face things they do fester and create dis ease in our bodies and minds. Today I am trying to be brave and face the things that are causing me to feel down.
I will continue these thoughts later and get to the message I received for today. I connected and asked what the listeners and readers needed to hear.
VI of Pentacles (R)
VI of Swords
The underlying energy of Knight of Pentacles
This is the ending of a cycle for you. You are moving on from, or out of, situations that made you feel less. You realize that being alone is better than being in a toxic or unbalanced situation. A time for a new journey, that starts with you focusing on yourself. Don’t rush this new beginning. You’re investing in yourself and your future.
I hope that my words brought you thoughtful contemplation today. As always the cards that were chosen and the discussion can be continued on my website DragonflyRose.com in the Forum under the discussion The Daily Journal. I have felt a bit rushed this morning but I wanted to share my journey, even if just a small nugget of what I am working on. I hope that you all have a lovely day full of blessings and miracles. So much love, talk to you tomorrow. Take care.